Tip of 2010?

Lol.. kinda sophisticated to comprehend how I started my 2010.
I would prefer to remain conservetive. well, just the skeleton maybe.
at first, i was being questioned. then, my turn, until the whole conversation ended.
the contents? forget it!
how do u aspect me to forget off this special night where you were the first person told me thart u trust on me?

Mood of the Week.

Very soon, I'm gonna face my final exam. It's gonna be such a freak challange for me! To be frank, I dont think I am ready for the exam. There are still heaps of topics that are totally strangers to me. I've got no idea how and what to start with. Too many! This ain't gonna be like Form 5, SPM time, which I had a study couple, Irivng. That time, I was so terrified. I didnt want any external problems to affect my preparation towards SPM. What I was aiming that time is to get JPA scolarship. But, ended up with parents supports to study overseas. I tried my very best to conquer for the best results. I was so lucky that I've found such a great remedy to get myself up on track. I found Irving as my study partner. I mean, seriously, if i didnt have him, I wouldn't't be putting such a great efford to get straight As (well, satisfied enough as didn't expected). i always acknowledge that I ain't a smart, intelligent person, who born to be good at everything. I tried to get him asking me questions that he doubted, and, that made me to be motivated in looking for the solutions. He, who was quite an expert in probability (which i sucks in), helped me a lot in coping with this horrible topic. again, thanks alot.

I was such a dumb now. I can't find a proper method to keep myself on track in studies. I've tried so hard to find someone who can work together, but, ended up with no body else. I put quite a great hope that "R" could be my study partner, what he gave me was sort of lame excuses. "No, thx". this is what he will respond me when I ask him whether he wants to go to library to do some revision. What a heck! I was trying to persuade CJ as well this afternoon. well, still hoping he will be my next study partner to replace Irving in Form 5 that time. I really need this kind of study skills right now. I wanna enter my desired course in university. Really need to do well in my year end exam. Can i make it through?

I've got a terrible mood this week. Really moody! Cant even control my temper. Just, feel everything is irritating! I tried to avoid any conflict with others by keeping myself locked in my room. I blocked and deleted some of my friends' MSN contacts to avoid destraction! I can't handle with all these destraction that makes me feel so irritating, hates and angry. Even i can't face my friends, feel like wanted to give them a great punch! I tried so hard to avoid such tragedy! again, by keeping myself loocked in my room.
Sometimes, when i was serious, they take it as a joke! what a fuck is that! They seem to me like talking nonsence. 说活一点内容都没有。 You kno what? especially you, H, who was the first person ever to block you in my contact list. YOUＴＡＬＫSHIT!! BLOODY HELL YOU！！I really wish to state your name here! but this time, i admit i dare not to. For those who never see me online, dont have to think much, It's so obvious that I HAVE BLOCKED YOU IN MY MSN CONTACT!!! If u think that i m wrong, just dont see my face lar! dont wish to talk, dont talk lar! seriously, i dont need you as friends. Its good for me not to let me think of guiltyness! Sometimes, feel like i m living in my ownworld. I dont wanna be sociolised, again, to avoid quarelling or some arguments. I was talking this to Derrick, annd thank God he lent me his ears. I feel so confort after all.

Another thing was about last night, I called a friend of mine, just wish to keep in contact, and what the heck she replied me:做什么？不可以吗现在？！(with the rude stupid malaysian chinese accent). Just wanna tell you ok, My life is not ruled my you! especially girls! Who are you to talk to me in such a way! I am calling you all the way from Australia ok? Please respact my call! damn you!

Really moody this week! Rushing my studies like hell! It's always a bless for me that I m fucking noob in Computing, I dont know facebooking, and the most importantly is that I DONT PLAY COMPUTER GAMES which most of my friends are deep into. Thank GOD! Whatever it is, I always support those game player friends to get addicted until exam! Jia you!.

The Saturday

So, as I've pointed out in my previous post, Today's the haloween day. I didn't make any celebration, but, just slacking around. HUH!
I woke up at 1 pm together with hungry (he overnight at my house). I went to have lunch at Myer, with Hungry, then, I persuaded him to look for sunglasses. There was a Burberry Sunglasses, damn nice! After seeing the price, I straight walked out. 350 dollars. which is equivalent to RM1225.oo (Msia Dollar). but, before that, i tried so hard to persuade Hungry to get one instead. We went to David Jones, Vic told me that he is also looking for one as well. he asked for the price including the precription, and it's gonna cost about 600 dollar per sunglasses. So sad to hear that all the Oakley sunglasses can't be prescripted as the lenses are too curved. So unfortunate that she said most of the glasses doesnt suit to be prescriped. We both shopped for hours before she got back. It was so hot! (33 degree), so, after hours of having fun, I straight back to my appartment. Too hot and Too tired! I went to take a long nap! and you know wat, I slept for 3 hours, while Careena was playing computer games in in the other room. Sorry ya, didn't entertain you. I woke up at 9 pm, and head to kitchen to squench my thirst. this stupid Sas(indonesian housemate) said that i slept soundly, wtf! he really pissed me off!. made me so embaress.

I went down to have Subway for dinner this time with voucher given by Andrew. got a foot long! lol! This is my Saturday!

I sat down in front of my computer, and suddenly noticed that my sister had left an offline massage. I totally forgot that today is her big day! She has just got her citizenship as singporean. A very BIG congratulation for her! Love you so much! always give you the best supprts1 Then, we both started talking about some personal stuff.. She was trying to persuade me how smart gals are! reminded me not to get trapped! haha1 I asked her whether can she read all those Foul language that i wrote almost all my posts as she is pragnenting now. " Not good lor.. later my kid will follow.". YAYA! I respect her for sure.. hehe..


Just wanna show that how close my relationship with my sister is.


Meanwhile, I recieved a massage from her again. saying that she missed me so much. LOL! watever it is, she was trying to complain that i never write about her in any of my posts. I got her something! Remember that i talked about her printing out someone's posts by using chinese? I GOT HER! I guess she tried to mean me! "if you got update your blog tell me har...i ask my sis to help me print it out". this is what she massege me. ahahhaha! So how, do you want to admit?

Simply just an ordinary Saturday, with a special congratulation to my dearest sis ever who has just got her citizenship.

The Cruel High School Educators!

"I really dont like teachers to be UNFAIR"

I just got back from cocolat, had some stupid milkshake that costs me 6.50 dollar. Bloody hell!
On my way back to my appartment, I couldn't stand staring at they two talking so excitedly! furthermore... erm.. 'cant tell' sorry.
I tried to find something lame to talk to Hungry. HARH! GOT IT! Lets talk about Pn Chiew. she was my ex-teacher who used to talk shit in chemistry!
I REALLY DONT LIKE HER! She was the one who broke my friendship with a best friend of mine! ah yang, and also Zh. haiz! she is.. simply very kepo! really hate her!
Things happened when i was in form two. Then, she was teaching some fucking studff which involved the usage of fucking asbestos sheet!
"before I start the class, does anybody know what is the use of asbestos sheet in laboratory?"
no one could answer including me. GOSH! i knew what was her next target. She asked stupid ZH again! wtf!
"ZH, can you contribute your knowledge to the class?" ARGHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE THIS!! so unfortunately that stupid zh knew the answerr! wtf lar!
this was what she said after zh told her that it is used to minimise heat loss to the fucking surrounding :"VERY GOOD!!! You've got the understanding very clear" wat the fuck! Why the fucking Chew so sayang zh?? he smart meh? I guess i m smarter!! he handsome?? wtf! gila chew! so old still want to tackle her student! fuck her off!.

Still remember vividly in my mind. One day, while having an ordinary science class in form 2, i was playiong with zh, then, i hide his pencil case. later, its'w disappeared. then, fucking chew blamed me that it was my fault! wtf! she said i needed to be punished! fuck her off! She caned me infront of the whole class! As i was the treasurer of afternoon prefect, i felt damn fucking emberess man!. emagine! You are high poss leh! somemore you should be the model for all students!. She really pissed me off man!. again, Fuck her off!

Luckly in form 5 i was so smart! I m not gonna let her unestimate me anymore! I did much much better than stupid ZH! however, there were still much conflicts which i lazy to mention here!

Just to conclude, I really fucking hate seeing teachers who being unfair with me! I really can't forgive this kind of people.. argh!! too tired now..

the Adulthood!

I've been blogging for times, and now, it seems to be an addiction to me! 'Blogging", kinda fun actually. Despite the fact that i can tell others what have I been doing the whole day, I could actually sxpress out my feeling, my soul in the other way. I ain't gonna talk much about all these much, and gonna start talking about Halloween Celabration in Adelaide, which falls tomorrow.

This is the first time I heard of this kind of celebration, so, here is what I found out about what is actually meant by Halloween Celebration.
"Halloween (also spelled Hallowe'en) is an annual holiday celebrated on October 31. It has roots in the Celtic festival of Samhain and the Christian holy day of All Saints. It is largely a secular celebration but some have expressed strong feelings about perceived religious overtones.[1][2][3]

The day is often associated with the colors black and orange, and is strongly associated with symbols like the jack-o'-lantern. Halloween activities include trick-or-treating, wearing costumes and attending costume parties, ghost tours, bonfires, visiting haunted attractions, pranks, telling scary stories,and watching horror films."

I'm not kinda keen about what is fun about this celebration. So, i guess nothing much that I would do on this day (tomorrow). I mean, I m not possible to go for clubbing, guess what? It's gonna be an ordinary day. Some of my friends came over to my appartment, but, this time with some beers. LOL Guess wat, My mum will sure be staring with her big eyes reading this sentance again!. BUT,, I DIDNT DRINK!

I was asked to buy this, one thing that made me startled was that the counter gal didnt even check my passport. I looked so mature now! ahahaah i m old..

it's gonna be kinda random in this writing, and Let me proceed to some interesting thing about relationship stuff. I am over 18 now. It's legal for a son to talk about this, Ma. Well, "'18' doesn't mean that we are freed". I never believe that ones who reach at the age of 18 and he or she can do whatever they wish to do! Exectly NO! As long as we are in our studyhood, we still have to be able to think wisely. We are and always asians. If i were the Prime Minister, it would definitely be a NO to have SEX, NO alcoholism and clubing. i MEAN, come on! we still rely on our parents, we need their money! we cant live without them! well, basically, i m talking about this is because of someone, she is kind of gud friend, who got herself involved in such situations. I know she has no way to avoid, but, listen to me, think about your future. you are just 18 now. u still have 62 years to live, which is equivelent to three times of your life since you were born.

Alright! now, Love relationship. I dont mean that teenage or adults can't get involved in relationship. One thing that i am curious about : Parents love us so much, and we give our love to ones that we love". Does it make sence? i wonder how do our parents feel. For sure you will have some contraversial issues with your parents before, even your parents did. but, normally, to consoul myself, I would think that where am i gonna be without them. I wont be in adelaide to further my studies. I acknowledge that some may think that they might as well not be born to suffer with all sorts challenges. BUT, this is for you, 'fly', Hvae to think that life is cute. full of ups and downs, challenges that make you improve, anger that makes you learn not to annoy people, failure that makes you succeed, and regrets that gives you lessons. LIFE IS SO UNIQUE,

I've read one of my friend's posts, but, she was writing in chinese, so, cant read and understand most of the parts. Came to a part that says she read someone's blog and found that it was so interesting that made her to print it out!. lol Should I copy and paste what she wrote in the blog and let everyone to translate it for me?

I am gonna end this post, as I still have something tol write about my high school educators in my next post now. haha.
dont forget to catch it later. Cheers!

THE CRUEL TIMER

"Time's Up! Pen down, now!"


I knew that today ain't gonna have any special events that can panetrate in to my blogger. TEST AGAIN!!! bloody EAP Argumentative essay writing test!

I skipped my physics class today, as again, didn't sleep the whole night. I got my EAP revision ready, and my physics review done (partially), went to bed around 6.30am. i slept until 12.00 noon, and got ready for the test at 1pm. I was thinking to have my lunch at Swinging Bowl, but, ended up with stomuch ache. I went to Subway instead, fast, and healthy! Bingo! I straight headed to 195 N.T. and had my lunch in one of the classrooms with feww china friends as acompanymewnt.

I started my test exectly at 1.10pm. and what the bloody hell Liz told us that the test period has been changed to 100 minutes instead of 2 hours. FINE! and what ended up was that i lacked of time!

"Alright class! Time's up, Pen down, now!" ARGH!!!!! 100 minutes's passed.
"Please, Give me another 5. I just need this to get my conclusion done!" I asked to get some extra time.
Instead, she told me that I've got the last minute to get my last sentance completed. I didn't put a damn, just kept writing until she grabed my 4 articles. Fine! i no longer need'em. Too nervous! I tried so hard to finish up few sentances to conclude my argumentative writing. She was standing beside me, keep pushing me that I should have handed up 5 minutes ago. I didn't know what was I writing about? Crabs? lol! whatever! at least i've got some marks on concusion! Bloody hell!



I guess I've got nothing to write in this post. oh ya! Wanna talk about something here!

I believe it seems rediculous, stupid, and watever, i mean, writing about relationship stuff in blogger, and let everyone read, even your family, especially your parents.. doesnt it seem to be such a stupidity?
I've read some of my friend's blogs (Not Adelaide's), trying to express their progress in relationship.. HUH!!! very emberressing (for me). I mean, i really wish to know how to have that courage on writing such stuff? what to start with?

HUH!! CANT UNDERSTAND!!! or is it because i m kinda shy? lol!!! ya lar! i also wich to express my love to the person i love, my anger to the people that i angry with, and my hates to the people i hate.. BUT HOW??? through blogging?

"Actually, I've got a crush on 'J' since months ago. BUt, never have the courage to to express my love to her. I've had a very good time with her, but, found that we've got a big gap in between. What sort of 'gap'? yea. probably studies? background? unmathcable? whatever it is, it seems to be a tough task for me to have the precious moment to tell you, that I LOVE YOU.. "

what the hell all these? How to aspect me to say this kind of words in public and let everyone see'em? I can't believe if your parents were to view it. LOL!
First question they will ask:"You are in love?"
second question :"Since when?"
third question :"why didn't you share with us?"
forth question :"Does she show any responds?" - I hope she does.
Fifth question :"Do you concentrate on your studies?" (sure asking indirectly)

the questions sure followed by some feedback moral or I would say it as "bible
reading session"

FIrst :"You should have focussed on your studies right now."
second :"It's not actually the time for you to have love relationship."
Third :"The future is yours. Women do not determine your future."
forth :"If you feel this affects your studies, make sure stop it."
Fifth :"Ma tell you this (These) is actually for your own good, Trust me,concentrate on your studies and make us proud."

So how? Is this your parents' style? ahahhahahahahahahahah! I m damn sure My mum follow my posts everyday. and sure she will see this. ahahahahha
well, again Ma, dont worry, I am still single right now. dont really wish to be coupled YET. well, unless she is HOT. BUT, i will never put my family, especially parents lar ofcos, to number three. the first is always my future, though i love'em so much.

Midnight's Barr Smith with Ju-On

after finished writing my previous blog, i straight went to bed, and thought that waking up in the middle of the night to continue on my specialist maths preparation. I woke up upon hearing wee chen knocked on my door, saying that our appartment should be black-off. The lights remained bright. well, suppose tonight will be black-off.
I recieved a massage from "him" again.. then, later a call from the same person. well, this kind of call i've recieved before. it's kind of - fun call perhaps. i could sense that 'he' didn't seem to be at home and yet he told me that he was.. hah! watever it is, he admitted at last! got you! Hui Ren was at library again, this time, he was alone.

Nthing special! Since i'm gonna burn my midnight oil for tonight, i've made up my mind, straight headed to the library at 1.00am. Believe it or not? I stayed until the next day, continued my first lesson with Andrew (Specialist maths lect).

Again, I was just slacking aroung the unoccupied library, well, except for hui ren, there is apparently no one else.

Midnight at the library.

After he had his stomoch fully filled with indomee, i tried to create some scarry mode. LOL, DAMN COOL! i asked him what scarry movies that can be found in youtube. Here he came up with "Ju-ON" hahaha!!! Using his computer, i set up my courages and watched it. Believe it or not! stupid hui ren didnt even stare a single part of the scene. He pretended to squart down and concentrate his chemistry! lol he gave me the reason that the movie is fucking scarry!. he scared wor!!! walao!! i wonder what was he so concentrating on his chem! after watching the lame Ju-ON, what i noticed was that he had done nothing. the page he was writing remained "crystal clear", exectly same as what it was before i watched Ju-on. LOL BOOH!!! to conclude that, he had done fuck all, as his mind was divided into two parts: ju-on, and Chemistry. LOL at last, he ended up with nothing! ahahahha!


my Specialist Maths Vs. his Chemistry

I knew that the toilet ain't at the building we were. the only and nearest toilet available that time was opposite the Barr Smith library. around 100m? It was about 2.30am that time, and I wish to pee-pee. tHIS is crazy! he really screwed me up! "are there any ghost in the toilet of union hall?" i asked him before i dare to go. "Erm.. nope i guess, Only Ju-on." what the hell was that! I loughed! He just kind of pissing me off! I ask him to accompony me lar ofcos.. Sadly, we had to climb up to the third flour to get access to the fuggly toilet. "can we get the elevator instead?" i request since there is a lift, with door open. again, "can't u see he is inside there? (he is referring to Ju-on again) the lift is specially made for him". well, put a loughter on my face again. We went back to where we were just now after pee peeing. Got some coffee (huiren treated me this) and a stupid Apricort fruit bar from the vending machine in 'Ju-on's Hall'. that's the end of Ju-on.


"Alright. Let's make it this way. We both made a deal! "you have u finish up your chem asignment until question 3, and so do i gotta finish finish my specialist maths exercises until question 3". i knew that it's kinda impossible for me as mine involved heaps of stupid calculation!. well,, Am i giving him a motivation? and To me as well meanwhile. alright! so, We gave it an "ON".


my wordings at 1.30am


my wordings after 5.00am.

Not even 15 minutes, we both got slacked again! wtf lar! HE DEMOTIVATED ME!!!!! argh!!! I put a pause! shit man! I continued having chat with 'fly'. She was my only chinese friend in Sejarah tuition in form 5. Basically what we chat was all about her personal stuff. She has doubts about all her miserable life. and what I am now is a councellor!

5.30 am now. still remained in front of this stupid desktop. I have no doubt that he is still playing the stupid dota. I tried to remain focussed, but yet, i could see all the computers and stuff in the room were juggling around! ARGH!!! I was tired with books! I put down my pen, sending the last massage to 'fly' : I am ready to pack up.' I switched off the pc, got my stuff ready, straight back to home!

on the way back in city.